yes, very dark
Lunch with YX and Oli in Aston today.
Goood girls talkkkk.
We is the Ahlianxzxz of smusmu. HAHA


I am so Urgh,
its just this Urgh feeling,
that i cannot get rid of,
and its bugging me so bad,
i can sit and stone the entire day,
thinking whats the Urgh factor.
H.e.l.p.


IWantToSaveTheWorldFullStop

I loveeeeee my friendsss.
I want to treasure them.

Study, No more

I love weekends,and they never fail to zoom pass.
Sighs tee tee am.
hahaha.

My hell week is pronounced happyily over,
all thats left is the disgusting BGS report
which i aint that worried about.
Woooo!
Now this is the LAST week of schoool,
basically only classes that really needs to use brains
and pay attention are FA and STATS.
Comms&BGS is left with just listening to student' presentation,
and for TWC, liting and i never once paid very much
attention except for the one session,
where our prof blew his top in our class.
Hahaha.
So yays, im not dreading this week at all!

I had BGS meeting till,
this BGS meeting is only with byrant though,
i swear we are the bitchiest group EVER,
we end up with verbal abuse of each other,
and seriously, we are the MOST ANGSTY group ever HAHAHA
But its pretty funny,
unlike normal boring meetings.

Nothing was especially interesting last week.
except that i finally met up with Leqi
after omg long.
despite all the shit we had,
i think we can still be laughing over the same things
over and over againnn,
and yes theres still love, despite all.
Just one more chance to make all this difference.
yays!

Sat.
Alumni OCIP meeting back in SA, omg
i swear i miss the smell of SA,
i dont know why, just that smelll. HAHA
By the way, this trip is bringing us back to the
good ole Koh Ramdual island, woowoo.
Im very excited about going back there, really,
cos the trip last year was fantastic.
The only difference now is that,
the people are different!
SIANXZXZ, Theres no more Yuwen,Leqi,Jiayi,Minqi, Jo.
tsktsk, there were like my best companies there!
And no more MrHo, Bryan&derrick.
The threee jokerssssssss.
SADXZXZ MAXXXX,
WHY EVERYONE cannot go now :( :( :( hahaha
I'll miss you allllll.


I swear Edward from Twilight is the ultimate
sweetest vampireeee/bf you can ever ever find.

Edward: "Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars- points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

Sending all our loves

Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.











We draw you two into studying with us:) haha

Study date with Pearl,
shes the first person i started studying officially with,
since i decided to settle down for serious business.
hahaha, she has the sarcasm that so reminds me of yw&yj i swear.
Whats good is taht, at least i accomplish some work,
Woowooo pearl, love you, more to come yoxzxz,
we said today, GPA 4.0 is NOT a problem AT ALL. HAHAH

Karen joined us for a while, and omg
her eyes is still recovering,
i was being a VERY GENTLE nurse that
help her with eyedropssssss everyyyyy some time HAHA.
TAKE CARE KARENNNN:)
and we were trying so hard to motivate ourself,
we scribbled to the max on the board,
and made it a contract.



The "KARMA" was to warn people that wants to robbed
us of our lappies or valuables when we go for lunch.
HAHAHA.

Im down with Comms&BGS presentation!
Comments from Comms class was that i spoke a lil too fast at the first part,
blahblah, i was too scared and i know i went at chuchutrain speed,
but omg, it doesn't matter, i just want that 8min to pass!

For BGS, we had distinguished guest, Ohamgee,
if im not wrong, someone from ASEAN and some ambassador came.
HIS EXCELLENCY.
woowoo.
Their comments for our project,
was that our topic was too broad, tough.
So i guess we have to re-edit our research paper ttm.
I was mega terrified that day, i was melting in the
thick-hot-max blazors,
and my toes were seriously cramping badly from the stupid disgusting heels.
MY TOES WERE CRAMPING, I SWEAR,
byrant vid it down, ITS SO DARN unglam.

And sadly, when i thought i was walking fine in heels,
they tell me i look like im struggling in it. urgh HAHA
im gg to wear like a damn 5 inch heels one day.

Anyway, i thought our group was the most pathetic cos,
two dropped out till we are left with us,
but theres this other group whom is only left with two,
cos three left.
BGS class is definitely survivor lessson.
AND HURRAY, im done im done with it:)
everyone else still not doneeeeee,
all the way, it wont be as bad as you think!

Levine's BGS presentation!

Be that little pencil that write love letters the the world:)

Mr Pulchritudinous:
i wanna eat you up
Mr Pulchritudinous:
so that i will have you eternally
Mr Pulchritudinous:
HAHAHAHA
Mr Pulchritudinous:
to myself

Hahahaha, potential pickup line we discovered.

Anyway, im in school 7 days a week,
just for BGS project, for that 12 minutes that
we will be presenting which would not be graded,
but its so important and we are so worried/scared/anxious
over simoply cos we are presenting to discussants from the business world,
Ohamgee. And i cant stop harping on it cos
im gonna wet my pants cos of it.
And im have to put on blazors for the first time,
and look ultimately like a freak in it. HEH HEH HEH

And today(SUNDAY), i was rehearsing my script with byrant
before cady came. Hahahaha,
we rehearse like a million times and we still overceed the time limit.
I GOT SO TIRED OF TALKING.

Yunlu:"Can i just mental read while you start the timing,
i will tell you when im off to the next slide and when i end, PLEASE"

Byrant: #*$()#*$)*&(*$
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, oh wells, im probably wrong.

Just TUESDAY (TWO MORE DAYS), and its time for some funnn!!
(Despite exams which seems minute now,
but will be like a bomb that drop when i realise,
im too late to study) TEEHEEEHEEE.

I take my work seriously still okayxzxzx.

POKERFACEPOKERFACEPOKERFACE.
DUmDUMDEDUMMMMM.
YOU'RE HOT AND YOURE COLD, YOURE YES AND YOURE NO.
City of wonderxzxzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

How i missed the sunshine

Happy 20th EVON :D
More shopping again sooon yoxzxz
Amazing our little Maddies Co. from SA
still manages to meet up for every single birthady celebration we have!!

Hello world.
I am rollng in ouchouch cramps.
Urgh, women.
Hahahaha.

So far, weeks been fine.
I missed Handball trg cos i forgot to bring shorts,
i had everything, absolutely everything with me,
wanted to attend this last trg before exams.
Not fated.

Went for a Trekking-preparation run,
with the Trekking team & Pearleen,
i swear we died when we were only halfway there,
from SMU to Kallang, theres really not very far,
we are just unfit to the max okay.
Please, i need to get on my feet and get a little fitter,
this scary amount of fats accumulating in me scares me.
Hahahaha. But i am too lazy to do anything about it.
Plus, the fact that i am going trekking on a volcano
should really push me to train up abit,
before i dropped before i even reach halfway point.
HEH HEH HEH.

Met up with Vanessa Tay for some Aston in gardens,
astons is the mann yooooooo. I can eat foreverrrr.
She went to take an impromtu passport photo to apply for unis,
and wasnt satisfied, but anyway,
i think i'll never be satisfied with passport photo,
i took a million and one time but still hate my passprot photo,
now i have a collection to show all my children. Wooooo.
hahahaha.

BGS project is killing me,
we've been meeting every single day available to try to perfect it,
all for the mega presentation on Tuesday,
and even a gorgeous sunday like tmr is being exploited by them,
But oh wells, we'll get it over and done with.
BTW, its supposed to be a five-person project,
which ends up with just three of us,
our other group mate drop one after another,
over the span of 11 weeeks, Omg
i swear our Levine's class is like playing survivor game.
And i want to surviveeeee. hohohoho.

Tough weeks coming everybodyyyy,
just hang in there:)
And i must study&study&study,
so study dates, please come knocking for me,thanks.
Although im still reluctant to settle down for
some serious mugging businesss. urgh.

Yuwen have flown to Melborne
for some fun with Yingjing this weekend,
for their shopping&crubbbing. HAHA
Hello lovelies, i swear i miss partying with you all!
And i can imagine how loudly i can scream when i see you all again,
my life has beeen tooooo peacefully quiet now,
i am turninggggg a blockkk.
HA HA HA.
XOXO.

Twirl me right round, rght round.

SMU GIRLS RUGBY at M1 Carnival

First proper rugby match (the prev we had was friendlies),
and i was pretty excited about this game,
probably cos i learnt alot more skills about the game.
compared to the first virgin match where we only,
had like ONE trg.
Anyway, we lost, forth as we are,
quite disappointing, im sure we all expected better,
NUS-champions. Ughxzxzxz.

Its an injury to the maxxxxxxxxx match,
first ten minutes of the game,
and i already landed badly on my ankle yet againxzxz,
nothing new HAHAHA,
and i got elbowed on my chin,
wahxzxz, concussion thank you whoever you are.
And some big women landed wholly on my pinky,
pooor lil pinky, its like traumatised.
hahahaha and oh, i fell flat on the ground,
and smashed my teeth,
i celebrate that my teeth(and braces) are still intact,
and i wont talk with wind coming out inbetween.

I was not the only bruised one i swear,
the rest were probably worst.
Mel was punched in the face,
she had a big blue black on her face now,
Some fat girl fall straight on Junjia collarbone,
omg, the first time i see her swear so much,
and we sent her to the hospital after the match,
its just a shot i guess, she fine already!

Tackling scares me,
its like just pulling and pouncing on the person
with the ball, and making them fall on the ground,
but it feels good to take people down,
really just throw your entire body at them. HAHA

There was once, i rememeber and i thought it was pretty funny,
it was a penalty i think,
so i was holding the ball,
waiting to hit and go,
HAVEN'T START BTW,
and this girl came grabbing me,
and going "HARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR, RAWRRRR"
BUT
like ummmmmm, the refereeeeeeeee says PAUSED, honey.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

The game was fun, but it would be really a mega bonus,
if we did better yo.
Anyway i am officially walking corpse now,
everywhere is aching ttm.
TAKE CARE BRUISED PEOPLEEEEEEE! haha









Met TannyWong for dinner after 2493509479 years,
and yo, spill your dirty lil secret heeheeee.
I am not annoying still.
HoHoHoHo.


NOW, time for complain box.
I have this project with this really bitchy group omg,
BuayTaHan, really everyone just shoot themselves and die.
They make me rush back for meeting after the match,
BY THE TIME I REACH BACK SCHOOL,
It was a fucking 3plus, which is fine,
since we initially already intended to meet till 6pm,
But the WTF-thing is,
they suddenly had to leave at 4pm but what various
fucked up reason they had,
And they could jolly well let me know,
and be nice and say, if im coming back that late, then its okay already.
BUT THEY DINT.
They told me, WHEN I WAS BACK ALREADY. Fuck you dude.

So in the end,
i rush like some dog,back to school,
for a what HALF AN HOUR,
doing something that, do not really even need me there,
it was like WHO DO WHAT ONLY,
which can be delegated and sent to me,
and tell me,
THEN I DONT HAVE TO COME BACK ANYMORE.
BastardS to the max i swear,
brainless and unkind arses.
U*@$()#&$*&(*$#^$*&^*&^@)#@

I swear if i have a target list,
they will be first to be shot.
Now just wait for this to be over,
and see no more of them, I BEG.

Everything/Everyone is just annoying shit outta me.
Thanks to people whom listened to all my
bitchfits, and helping me curse my awful friends,
for anything that have happpened (i'll rmb those shits for shit things only HAHA),
OMG THERES SO MUCH,
and i wont forget them at all.
THANKS LOVEEEEEEEEXZXZXZXZXZ.

THREE MORE WEEKS TO STUDY BREAK:)

Sanity at risk

Hello world, i havent been blogging YET AGAIN.
Its been more or less 2 weeks since the break/since i last blogged.

I am mega disgusted with school as usual,
okay maybe it isnt that bad,
its just the any ONE bad of school will totally
erased ALL the good that's went by.
Hahahaha, i like the phrase,
"Going to school is like breaking up",
BINGO TEE TEE AM,
i am breaking up everyday. hahaha

SMU Adventure race, early bird collection is over,
i think we are halfway near our target,
so i pray and hope that the late bird collection will have
a overwhelming number of teams,
and not that im a fan of this event but cos,
i am in the financeeeeee comm,
and if theres not eough revenueeee&sponsorship
to cover the cost,
im the first one to have to selll myself to pay back.
SO EVERYONE, form team of 4s now and go participate,
100% SWEAT-ISH-FACTION YO.

And this reminds me of this conversation
which really cracks me up to the max,
on a boring tuesday morning class.
They were exclaiming about the wealth of this project mate they have,
topic lingers at his porcheee.
and guess what one of them said,
"I think his Porche Tyre is enough to support one Third World Country"
HAHAHH OMG ULTIMATE exaggerating/hilarious i swear.

What else,
Oh, i have NOT been attending ANY Handball session AT ALL,
ever since Waikiki?
although i do have VALID reason for not going,
but then again, even if i do not have those reasons,
i doubt i will still be enticed to go,
and why i am not enticed,
I have this thought that,
"Not like im a cannot-do-without player" HAHA,
seriously, i sucked at it, everyone knows it
WOOOWOOO, and i dislike the way they
screamed my name to "BACK TO D! BACK TO D!"
"THROW THE BALL PROPERLY!!" "WAVE"
OR "LULU X349058947369865 times" the only thing i hear.
I CANNOT THINK ON THE COURT,
AND SOME THINGS ARE JUST ON INSTINCT which i have no control over,
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, it really annoys me sometimes.
I still like Handball when i first came to know it,
to just be all over the court,
and not restricted.
Hahahaha.
So I need to hunt for my other talent that just like that and
fully utilised it now!

Something happy,
im down with TWC presentation today, omg
i am still panicking so bad,
my heart is about to surfaced out from my fats,
really,
and it shouldn't be this way!
TWC is a pretty relaxed class.

Imagine in two weeks time,
where i will have my Individual presentation,
and the prof and evaluator are gg to give me comments,
on the spot, in front of everyone,
like what American Idol?!?!
Eh i am no idol, why torture us this way!
omg i am gg to wobble and diediedie.

Another scared teeteeam presetation,
will be BGS, really BGS,
its a group presentation, i shouldnt be that terrified,
BUT I AM AND WHY?
Our really awesome prof, has kindly invited discussants from the
business, govt, society world to come and sit in and Q&A us,
OH AM GEE.
From the previous video he showed us,
There was a high high in the sky CEO,
and i think he spent what 5minutes crediting all his
past acheivements.
I think i will be shaking too hard to be able to speak.
Mercy please :(

But once these two are cleared,
i would be done with all presentations for this term,
and left with disgusting exams,
and although yes exams are disgusting,
i consider it love when compared to presentation.


This SAT is Rugby IVP,
Pray&Pray that we'll do it again:)



I want to stand strong.

White Water Rafting in Malaysia:)
3 Days 2 Nights of fun i swear, im missing it already!
We travelled the wholte entire night of like what 7 hours
on the coach.
I think i secretly like sleeping on a moving car/bus hahaha.
Just travellling like that makes me feel so peaceful please.

Anyway, reached the hostels we were staying the second day,
although its like some run-down dormitories,
with omg bug-filled toilets (SCARY TTM),
it was in a pretty greeeen placeee. Total love please.
Prepare and geared up for the waterfall trek!
Trekking for the first time,
certainly not as easy as i thought it would be.
I thought it was just merely walking through forest.
HAHA

Its more than that honey.
Its about going through really i swear narrow paths,
with poky times ten times,
on mudddy&dirty ground,
with bugs and LEECHES(OMG),
and also crossing slippery riversssss.
Hahahaha it was interesting though.

The awesome part was when we reach that really
pretty waterfall although yes the trek tire me out.
I love the waterfall, really.
We spent the entire time there,
soaking in the really cooling water,
camwhore and played water like crazy.
Splash, throw sand &rocks,
i was the target!! ohamgeee.
I got dunked the MOST time i swear,
till i came out with a big gigantic rock as a weapon against them,
HAHA peace came back to me.

BBQ for dinner, slapjack had our hands turned red,
screams through the night hahah.

Last day, we had our Class 3 water rafting omg,
the safety briefing had me jumpy and scared about falling into the river,
like seriously.
The instructor was saying that
at some points where the water is tooo rapid and strong,
and if we fall in, they wont be able to rescue us immediately,
we have to flow down the river outselvessss and wait to be rescued later,
Hahaha please i am too HumJi to be flowing down a river alone.

And because im probably a very jinx person,
i fell twice into the river.
Hahahah scared max!!!
Like HELP, PLEASE PULL ME UP NOW,
dont ask me to flow down myself HAHA.
JUST DRAG ME UP NO MATTER WHAT.
Although i always say,
"JUST LET ME DIE"
i think its not always the case HAHA.
Rafted for 5km, some drops are really EGGCITING TTM.
I want MORE of it please!









































Waikiki 2009,
its an annual sports event held by SMU,
and yes its in superhot Sentosa:)
Signed up for Touch Rugby and Captains Ball
with two different groups,
but i ended up only playing Touch,
WTF right. 12 bucks just effing burst right infront of me,
cos i dint get to play captains but paid for it.
Seriously. TEE AM DEE TEE TEE AMM.

Anyway i enjoyed Touch Rugby on sand,
with Melvin, Nick, Ben & Pearleen's group.
Hahaha the guys are ultimate pro contact ruggers,
i was just in the game because the rule says
at least one girl must be in the game at all time.
And yes, i am the one. HAHA
Okay at least, maybe i managed to scoree tryy,
and the rest of the time, i had rugby ball flying outta
my face or right into my face,
and falling flat on sand,
either trying to dive, or get pushed downn.
HAHA
i like the game though,
We got a Forth which i am pretty satisfied with,
though i think 3rd would have been great,
someeee cash prizes at least, DAMN haha.

Anyway, the weather that day was a total bitch,
it was so awfully hot for a while,
and it started pouring non-stop,
we had to stop our game twice because of the
POUR-STOP-POUR-STOP weather.

BTW, i got sabo-ed to be dunked by the stupid dunking machine,
just by standing there and watching some game going on.
Stupid MC and Monster was going around sabo-ing people,
and WHY WHY WHY.
Its so superb suddenly that
Weixian the guy in a mask (monster) came,
and all he said, "Lulu, you are getting dunk",
and i got escorted to the dunking machineee.
Hahaha seriously.
So people were supposed to throw ball at the pivot maybe,
hit and the bench will fall and i will end up in the tub of water,
HAHAHA Marcus very gladly tossed the ball which he missed,
and i was relieved, but only 3s after he missed,
weixian hit the stupid pivot with his hand.
THATS NOT PLAYING FAIR THANK YOU.
hahaha but the outcome is still the same,
i was drenched. UGH HAHA

And i still had games to play,
i ended up like some MUAH CHEE because the sand stick on my wet body!
EEEWWW really.

But waikiki is fun if you have the right company,
and play some good games:)

PICTURES












All these sums up ALL i did for my STUDY BREAK,
waht a study break,
i enjoyed this break but i know,
im going to regret not studying this one week.
Now the break it over,
it back to the hellish second part of the term
where all presentations&exams comes,
I HATE.
Please, i am counting down, maybe 6 more weeks?
and hurray its study break again then exams,
and BIG WELCOME to 3 months of holiday.
HAHAHA
MOTIVATION MOTIVATION.
ZOOOMMMMM there nowwwww.

Anyway sidenote!
Nigel just left today to Ireland for attachment,
omg i would die to be there now,
and he is dreading this tirp,
HOW CAN!?!?! haha
anyway enjoy that place yo! haha

There is the strange feeling of being hunted
A fear of the shadows and daylight too
So blinded by the flashing warnings
I stumble knowing not what is true
Whenever those curtains of uneasy calm fall
I call it quits to this masquerade-but then
I'm not holding the strings, so I move
Like a puppet dancing in the wind
There’s loneliness-the wound and the remedy
Disappointment of being alone in the crowd
A part of me searching for a sweet solace
A part me of me crying out aloud
"Enough" is what I often say
But I move beyond not knowing how
So do most, though they pretend otherwise
Helpless, for we do not have a choice