Life's been hell since my last post.
Seriously, school's really driving me pretty insane say since week 10.
Nothing fantastic happened, absolutely nothing
that can give my hell that little bit of joy.
Sooooo, i am back to emoschoolgirl.com (HAHAHAHA)

Highlights of the week
1. Touch Rugby Friendlies against TP,
it was an angsty game, a game that got everyone high on temper,
but eventually, we know all is fine because,
everything that happens on the field, stays there,
though it kinda suck out there.
We've got no one to blame, but really to train more together.
Anyway, it wasnt that bad a game though we lost.

2. Spent quite abit of time at the SMUX corner the past few days,
it was uhhhh definitely NON-productive,
but certainly gooood gosssip/catchup/laughing/stress-relieving session.
HAHAHAHA.
Dinner/Supper with JM one of the night at PASTAMANIA,
and that is ultimatee YUMMMYS considering how much i HEART pastas.
Lunch with Geri, which was supposed to be a GG session,
was disrupted. AYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

3. On a Friday night, when everyone is out there celebrating HALLOWEEN,
okay, not everyone, but those LUCKY ones,(DAMNIT)
i was in school till freaking 2am,
rushing out CAT project with OLI&TRACY,
its really impossible to do without the help of IS guys.
SOOOO very much thanks to that IS saviourrrrr.
But we've got a long list of stuff more to do,
while deadline is on WED,
which i hope we can do MAGIC,
WE HAVE TO, or we are screwed.
SOOOOO hell for the next couple of days.

PS: ive got MORE pictures to upload, from V's and my birthday celebration,
i will do it as soon as im not emoing over schooll (HAHAHAHAHAHA),
but thats like a daily thing, so maybe when things get a little better.





“ Maybe it makes sense now. Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a reason. Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a why. Maybe somewhere there’s that thing that lets you tie it all up with a neat bow and bury it in the backyard. But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers, and not tears, nothing can make something that happened unhappen.
— United States of Leland

So seriously suck it up, whatever shit you are feeling,
whatever kind of hell you are going through,
everything, everything's gonna get better,
and its gonna be alright.
HANG IN THERE

Celebrate with my oldeest freaks!! haha

I spent the entire of last weekend hibernating,
its good to be at home, really really.
Down for some family buffet on Sunday Night,
wished i had unlimited stomach space. HAHAHA.

MONDAY
Very sian-ed marketing class in the very early morning,
which was made better by showing us the VID of how DUNKIN DONUTS grew,
but it was miserable, bcos it looks so freaking tasty,
but not able to stuff them inside my mouth. URGH. haha
Lunch with constance&wq.
And second lunch with jingmin,jj,xx&jack. heeheee.
THEN,
Touch training 4-6,
Contact training, 7-9 DOWN AT NGEE AN OMGAWDS.
The few of us who had both,
really wanted to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Swear.
hahahaha.
LT drove the two bels and i home,
dark bel & LT, strongly object fair bel's and my idea for SUPPER.
SADLY. haha

PS: i miss track trainings in NGEE AN POLY.
The gym, the circuits, if not the freaking cross country trg,
where i am one of the few behind that CMI,
ended up finding shortcuts with Janice&V they all.
FUN MAX. HAHAHAA.

TUESDAY
MPW presentations, ended early.
Down to SMUX corner with JM, Siewhwee joined us,
and displayed her no ethics personality HAHAHAHA.
Meeting&Tuition.

“ I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
— Maya Angelou

This song is stuck in my head. Loving it.
Truely Madly Deeply

Verse 1
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.
Chorus

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...
Verse 2

And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
Bridge

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...
Chorus




And i think nightmares not over

FRIDAY
I had my very first lessonof FINISHING TOUCH,
with a superrrr coool prof! HAHHA.
I insist that he has a freaking nice voice,
and that he is really charming,
despite the objections from touch girls.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
The class was pretty interesting,
we did a profiling,
finding out what kind of a person we are,
and what kind of careers we should pursue,
and we played KNOWING ME KNOWING YOU,
which we were all lost.

PLUS we all had a freaking potato,
we had to write our name on it,
hahaha and then at the end of the lesson,
we are supposed to poke through the potato with a straw.
HAHAHA it really can go through you know,
i was soooo damn skeptical initially.
Whooooooooopieeeeee.

Had touchrug theory session after that.
Serious stuff, with very funny people. HAHA
As Bel,HJ,YX and I were commenting,
We totally feel the Love man!

Down to Chevrons club with YX&XX to
celebrate Jingmin's 21st.
The place totally reminded me of Track farewell LONGLONGAGO,
where we were freaking retarded there. HAHA.

Anyway the party had like 80% of smux people there,
seriously probably the largest and the noisiest group.
AND OMG, the rock&roll crap as passed on madly there.
UNCONTROLLABLE SPREAD. I am going to kill everyone and die HAHAHA.

We had BEEER PONG as activities.
I was in a team with Lingyi,Fengru,Weixin&Jamie,
we were TEAN _____ (WTH HAHA)against the birthday girl's team,
WHICH WE WON WITH VERY MUCH GLORY.
HAHAHA. They just had to drink and for our side,
Lingyi just TAR for us. TYVM HAHAHA

21st party are sooo cooooooooooool,
but omg so many birthdayxzxxz. HAHAH

Cabbed home with Xuekunnnn.

WEEK 9, down with 1 presentation& 1 test,
thank goodness.
But the test was really depressing,
studying for it seems to be of no help of helping me pass.
Everyone around me was dying man. SIGHS.
Jade,constance&i were way too depressed for anything after that,
i dumped my stuff in school,
down to bugis for lunch & a bit of old school fun, ARCADE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
We were busy venting our fustrations and every shit we were feeling,
on shooting dead men, throwing balls at cute little animals etcetc.
THANKS GIRLS, i had much fun, and it totally made me feel better!
HEEHEE.

Back to school for MPW meeting, pathetic HAHA.
Celebrate our groupmates birthday,
supposedly a surprise, but he said he already knew,
stupid spoiler HAHA NO FUN.

TODAY.
Training.
And i failed a test, sadly.

"I’m at the point in my life where things are neither good or bad. They could be better, but they could be worse and I can’t look at anything with a purely pessimistic or optimistic point of view. It’s that point in life where you just have to forge foward and hope for the best. You keep your fingers crossed in hopes that someday catching that happiness you tried so hard to hold in your grasp. That’s the thing about happiness, it is fleeting. Like that firefly you try to capture and no matter how many times you waver, try to clasp it in your hands, but it never wants to be kept. Keep one foot in front of the other and move along, because someday that firefly will find it’s way back to you. "

ROCK&ROW:)





I look so unglam here HAHA,
my arms were dead and i wanted to shout HELP,
cannot make it already HAHAH












Birthday celebration for us!
And we cannot wait to eat our safely transported cake HAHAHA
This is at Sembawang Park and i dint even know it existed.





DAY TWO





Group ending photo! <3

Although it was only a two days away thing,
it felt fantastic because all of us ditch our schoolwork&meetings,
be there&just have fun&relax.
Bcos, Life really really suck (HAHAHAHAHA)

SAT
SO MANY BIRTHDAYS IN OCTOBOER, cannot take it. HAHA
Down to Coasta sands chalet to celebrate Laiting 21st,
with jade&constance. Whooopieee.
She had a fantastic party,
and when i say theres too many october babies, its true,
there was one entire line of chalets all celebrating birthdays!
HAHAHAHA. We had a goood ole long talk, cos birthday girl was too busy to entertain us.
We just eat&drink.

Down to meet the old bunch of freaks. HAHAHA.
Tanny,Tangqian,Serhui&Charis&Some others.
Madzxzxzxz.Crazyxzxxz.Retardedxzxxz.
Slept at freaking 4am!
Woke up at 7 for touch, ITS HELL.

SUNDAY
NEBO TOUCH down in SJI international school,
i was whining and complaining about myself,
like omg, why did i choose to participate in this,
I wanna sleeeeeep. I am so grumpy.
bcos my only&last day of recess week will be burn there.
PLUS, there was only 8 players, how sad please.
Depressing, emo-ing with weeting till we meet the rest HAHA.

But after playing the games,
I did not regret. HAHAHA we did well,
though we only one one school,
but compared to S.unig, im sure our game play was wayyyy better,
SOOOO CHEEEEERS TO ALL.
MOS for lunch.
Home feeling burnt,tired,dead.

ITS WEEK 9. OMG.
1 TEST, 2 PRESENTATION.
May week 9 hurry pass.

SATURDAY of the sad midterm break.

ROCK&ROW :)
Went for a 2D1N kayaking expedition,
which was really superbly fun, i swear,
hahaha initially i was emo-ing about it,
cos i got a million other things that i need to do,
and i really dint feel like going!
but now, no regrets!! hahaha.
It was ultimate taxing on the arms though,
and btw, i am BURNT again, this time,
im really red & also very black,
okay i cant describe,
i just feel that, im the BLACK VERSION of RUHUA.
EWWWWW max.

So anyway, i joined this trip with pearleen!!
And i was going "SHIT" at first, when i saw that we wasnt paired up together in the kayak,
BUT THANK GOD, hahaha i would have probably died somewhere out in the sea with her,
none of us have ANY kayaking stars,
and looking at us, i doubt the org comm would put us together too HAHA.
and so we all had to pair a with guy,
hahahah i had JJ, who has 2 whooppiee stars! HAHA
PHEW, i just had to paddle and he does everything else.
HEEHEE. He is the man yoooooooo. HAHA.

Soooo it started off kinda bad,
with big rain&storm, we wasnt able to start the trip,
cos the visibility is crap. we will probably get crush
by speed boats&ships and die HAHAHA. okay KUAZHANG.
We waited till it got smaller and headed off.
Woooo, started from pasaris and all the way,
passing cony island, crossing a few channels,
before we reached SEMBAWANG pier,
our stop for the night!!

Night BBQ, which was hell hilarious,
with KH going on about his disgusting ZUP,
on the chicken wings,
and how chicken wings should be tortured before they can be eaten,
cos tortured food tastes better?!?!?! HAHAHA seriously.
And many more, which cannot rmb!!
Had a surprise birthday celebration for the me,freda&yilong.
THANKS:) it was really a surprise,
we were honestly looking around, asking whose birthday it was.
HAHAHHA. THANKSTHANKS again.
They were complaining how they had to bring the cake from the boat,
from a pasaris through the boats and there. HAHAHAHA
And it had to be a PANDAN CAKE, cos its the only thing that could survive,
creamy cakes would have all died!

We had a failed HTHT for the night,
and played 2truths&1 lie, and people started telling stupid jokes,
i mean BAD JOKES. really bad joke
HAHAHAHAHAHA
From Christina:
2 cabbage went trekking, and the weather was very hot,
so they started f taking off their clothes, layer by layer,
and then before they reach the top, they disappeared.
THE END HAHAHAHAHAHAH. Omg.

And they want me to tackle whoever that says a bad joke,
HAHAH seriously, after they know that im playing rugby now,
THEY CANNOT STOP dissing me about HAHAHA.
Like "EH dont make her angry ah, later she tackle you"
"Bad joke, lulu tackle!"
And Amit was scared, just cos im standing beside him,
"eh dont play with her ah, later she tackle you"
HAHAHAHA all along these lines, WHY like that.

Slept in the open although we had tents,
and froze myself out,
cos i was trying to me smart and pack small load,
thinking that the compulsory item (JACKET) is very stupid,
and decided no the bring cos of the hellish hot weather,
HAHAH and then i regretted, feeling dumb-er than ever,
cos i was really freeezing haha.

DAY TWO
Started off sembawang, stopped off at Punggol pier for lunch,
which was pathetic little breads, HAHAH.
Where i had a war against the others,
and i died eventually, cos all of them were attacking me,
HAHAHA and ended up with cuts on my legs AGAIN,
cos i fell on the rocks in the waters! AYE.
Dressed up the wound which wasnt necessary because,
AFTER THAT THEY CAPSIZED me into the waters, HAHA. manxzxz.
Dressing goneeeeeeee.

They are soo retarded,
tried so hard to capsized us, wasting all their energy
and then try so hard to save us again! HAHAHAHA.
YOUR TURN NEXT. THANKS.

Finally back to pasaris, arms pronounced deceased.
Washed up the kayaks and stufff and we are all done,
rushed offf.
FUN!

PS: the whole entire trip, they kept stirring my shit,
and till now, its still haunting mee.
HAHA WHY LIKE THAT

Met Verns,Hueysi,CHloe&Janice for dinner.
HAPPY 19th VERNS, hope you enjoyed the night with us!!!
Dinner at california pizza,
down to dempsey's red dot for some drinks.
HAHA although i was too tired to crap,
i laughed my lungs out really.

Touch Sunig, down in NUS field.

Our first game started at 10 freaking am,
and ended at 5 plus pm i think,
and we only had five games,
reason being, the boys rugby matches were like slotted in between us,
so we had like maybe 1 hour plus 2 hour break in between,
but coming to think of it, its not alot,
everytime, we have to start wamring up again,
i still feel dead tired and too lazy to move.
HAHA.

Oh wells, results wasn't fantastic again,
we lost all the games,
but as everyone said, we made improvements between the first to last game,
we fought hard,
under the melting shitass sun,
I AM CURRENTLY BURNT, hahaha
but thats my fault because i wanted to tann,
and refuse the sunblock. HAHAHA. OOOPS.

The game is as rough as a contact rugby match,
looking at my team mates and their injuries omg,
i am currently 100% traumatised.
PLEASE TAKE CARE EVERYONE.




















Now i think i look like an idiot here,
running myself hahaha







Dinner down in Holland V
I had a veryy early birthday celebration with mas,hahaha
THANKS:)
Its very retarded, cos initially,
yinx,huijun and i were like, eh whose birthday, whose birthday,
HAHAH it turned out that we are celebrating october babies,
although mine is like 3 weeks away
:D
THANKS AGAIN!







WEEK 8 is a break, thats bullshit.
It feels as bad or even worst than normal school days,
bcos of the fact that i have to go back school everyday,
despite it being a braek.
And i am sure thats not only me,
everyone has been complaining that they have 3-4 meetings on ONE FREAK DAY.
HAHA. Everyone else is in school,
theres totally no difference from normal school days.

Today is like this, tmr is going to be like this,
i just hope all my project meetings would be productive,
so that i would not be going home feeling grumpy that we got nothing done.
hahahah. SIGHS AND ARGH.

Today, after all my meetings,
met geri,louisa,evon&aline down to ps for dinner.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDYA LOUISA:)
its really belated TIMES TEN. hahaha


WHY DOES EVERY SINGLE THING FALL ON OCTOBER?!?!?
Presentations&test,
uni games, smux events,
so many people's 21st or not,
EVERYTHING EVERYTHING.
Such a long longggg monthhhhhhh.

DEPRESSED, join my emoschoolgirl.com HAHAHAHA.

“ There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we’re willing to let slip out of our grasp. Commitments are complicated. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we’re willing to make, true commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully.