Deeply Etched

MOUNT RINJANI.
Imbackimbackimbackimback.
Thank god to the total max,i swear.
Trekking up a mountain is certainly not what i expected it to be like.
Holyholy.
Regret 1: Should have found out what i am in for.
Regret 2: Should have attended at least one proper training
(which i dint and really suffered)

But it was seriously an experience of a lifetime,
and im not exaggerating but,
it could have cost our lives please,
i was seriously so scared at some parts,
and my legs were shaking so badly, i can hardly move myself.
AHHHHHHHHHXZXZ throw face to the max,
and at those cliffs, i take like a million years for a step.
I am a scaredyyyyyy cat,
i shall not deny,
i have a trememdous FEAR OF HEIGHT.

Every step i take up the cliff, i go "THIS TIME IM REALLY DYING"
All the death alarms was flashing in my head,
which goes DIE DIE DIE, or YOU DESERVE IT, SERVE YOU RIGHT.
And most of the time,i was cursing the mountain and myself like.
"STOP TRYING TO ACT BRAVE AND JOIN THIS KINDA STUFF"
HAHAHA
i think i saw the whole flashback of my entire life.

Lets go right from the start!

DAY ONE
Cabbed to airport, met up with the rest.
Reached Bali.
Bus for 2 hours down to Ferry Terminal,
and took the ferry for 4-5 hours before reaching our mountain/volcano,
in Lombok.
It was practically travelling&sleeping the whole entire way,
besides enjoying the coool breeze on the bigbig ferry,
which we felt like omg the people are all going to charge and attack us
once we are in the middle of the deeep blue sea. ahahaha

Reached Senaru Village at like midnight,
stayed there for the night,
dumped all our R and R stuff in the village,
and try to compact our trekking bag AS SMALL AS EVER,
which is so not very effective, it still weight like what 7kg.
helllxzxz.

DAY 2
We were all geared up right early in the morning,
tagged our bags, registered and collected our EXTREMELY HELPFUL
and IMPORTANT walking woooden stick.
I swear, i couldnt live without it at all.
Started easy,
It was pretty much trekking in a jungle initially,
just that it keeps going up up and up,
probably my warm up wasnt enough,
i was suffering from cramps on both legs,
how annoying.
It wasnt scary trekking in the jungle, it was just plain draining.
Dragging my feets up every step.

THEN there comes the hard one!
The one where we just climb up the cliff, around 2km vertically high up,
like seriously, it was the part one of trip scare,
everytime i loook down from where i am,
i seee either just fog,
big fat hardy rocks or plain and never ending grassland,
i will start panicking,
like DIE, if i do not step properly this time, THATS IT,
I am dropping wayway down,
and i wont even know where i die. HAHAHA,
and they wont be able to find me.

Sorryxzxz, i is very humji and paranoid, I fucking hate heights!
I try my best NOT to look down,
and it would definitely help if people dont keep asking me
to "ENJOY THE SCENERY, LOOOOOOOOOK",
or weibin to go "DONT LOOOK TO UR LEFT" HAHA
which i would since he said that! And i go AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Some parts, i was just too plain scared,
and move too slowly,
So i really thank everyone that really helped me across all those shit.
Like the helping hand really matters alot,
i trusted it more than walking myself.
I grabbed them so hard, they must be like OHAMGEE.
THANKS PEOPLEXZXZ.

Finally reached our BASE CAMP 1 at around evening.
Settled down in our tents already pitched up by the porters,
and down for dinner in the freeezing cold.
We were all wrapped up in our jackets,pants,beaniess,gloves.
Dint expect it to the so cold, really.
I thought the 4-5 degree was just plain kuazhang when they said HAHAHA.
Slept early for the night, cos i know the next day is just ANOTHER torture.
Hahahaha. Our tents were like on the slopes,
and toilet is just a bigbig open air back cloth made into a shape of cubicle,
and toilet bowl is just a plain hole in the soil.

In the middle of the night, when i was urgent,
i was too damn lazy and scared to go down the little slope,
im prettty blind, and so i started peeeing outside our tent HAHAHAHA.
The worst thing ive done,
but its certainly not worst of the worst.
My bunk mate, pearleeen, WANTED TO SHIT W*&R$*(#&Q^$&#%&^#@,
and we were too scared to go hunt for the toilet,
SHE STARTED SHITTING OUTSIDE OUR TENT,
i was telling her to please go far far away,
and when she came back, she told me,
"I THROW THE SHIT DOWN THE MOUNTAIN"
Ahhhhhhhhhhh, gross to the max, her flying shit HAHAHA.
Really fantastic.

DAY 3
It was trekking down to the Crater Rim of the Mountain,
where the Lake is,
it was gorgeous,
but it was more terrifying than yesterday,
Trip scare PART 2.
This time, it was climbing down a cliff,
like ROCKCLIMBING, ROCKCLIMBING,
I was never good with that, and did not know we need to do that!!

When i saw photos at the guides place,
and we saw people on all fours on the cliff,
rocking climing without any harness or whatsoever,
with below being the bigbigbigbig lake,
we were like "CANNOT BE LAH, THATS HOW DANGEROUS,
maybe we'll have ropes or something"
and we were also saying "NO LAH, THATS LIKE CLIFF DIVING,
we CANT be doing that"

It was pure cheating ourselves, and consoling our thumping hearts,
the fact is, WE HAD TO DO THAT.
&$*#(&$(*&*%*^$%*&^@#$*^&*$%^$*%
I think my leg shoook harder than what the OSIM shakeshake
thing could have done to me. I probably lost weight
to the constant shaking.

And btw, they transferred weibin from another group,
to kinda assist me, cos i seriously suck,
and he was giving me step by step guide,
like FIRST, you put ur leg there, left leg on that branch,
hands here and there.
THANKS, really needed that,
and always ready to watch me fall. HAHAHA.

Made it down to the lake,
i think my heart stopped for that whole time climbing down,
it probably took away a few years of my life.
Then we went to visit the hot spring by the bigbigbig waterfall,
omg comfy, soaking ur feets insideeee,
if only it was hotter, cos we were freezing.
The rain made things worst.

Lunch and trek to our base camp 2.
Reached before evening.
Really slept EVEN EARLIER,
because, Tonight at 2am,
we're going to head for SUMMIT PUSH,
the reason for starting at digusting 2am is because,
we want to reach at 6am to watch the SUNRISE.

Day 4 early 2am
Summit push is the hardest hardest part of this entire trip,
beside it being so awfully dark&cold,
having only headlamps as aid,
we were walking on Volcanic soil or rather ashes,
it was horrendous, because every step we take, we slide back a few steps.
One good thing about trekking in the dark is that,
i cant see whats beneath me,
so i was oblivious to the height,
just see like BIG BLACK HOLE beside me.

Pearleeen&I were at the back, the seniors were helping us madly,
and she knows i have no guts,
when i started walking damn slowly along thin edges.
SHE WAS LIKE "I KNEW IT WHEN YOU STARTED WALKING DAMN SLOWLY"
She started holding my hand across HAHAHA,
although she was also unstable and tired, LUBXZXZ

I was like dead zombie walking,
too tired to care to listen about what they are singing&talking,
could only hear them exclaiming about seeing SHOOTING STARS,
which i missed cos i was concentrating to see what i am stepping on.
But i did MAKE A WISH when they scream shooting star,
the only sole wish that night was "PLEASE LET ME GO HOME"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

All along while walking, they were like
"whats your name"
"whats your fathers name"
"mothers name"
"MUST BE ALERT MUST BE ALERT".
But i ignore it all, IM NOT BEING UNFRIENDLY,
ive got no mor breathhhhh!
haha.

At 6am, when the horizon was already out,
i wasnt at the summit,
I WAS SO STILL FAR FAR AWAY,
hahahahah! The last strech was terrible,
It was all looose volcanic rock,
i was practically on all fours,
crawling up already, cos the height was awfully traumatising!?

I thought i was never going to make it up there,
because all i can think of, is
IM AM SLIPPPING DOWN and dying,
too tired to continue.
And it was way too rocky.
I JUST DID NOT WANT TO FALL OFF THATS ALL.

I made it up the summit like what 2 hours later at 8am! hahaha
Some were already there,
i was the second last to be up!! hahaha.
There was NO MORE SUNRISE.
The scenery was awesome, like heaven,
i cant describe, like wonderland HAHA
but i know i was too mentally, physically dead to really admire them.

But really, the summit was gorgeous.
I did not enjoy for long,
because, WE HAVE TO MAKE OUR WAY DOWN,
it was like rock skiiing,
i was so puzzled as to how can they even rock ski down,
when you know you are gg to die, if you cannot stop!!!!
Yelling at them in my head, like NONONNONO.
HAHAHA

And i was telling someone (cant rmb who),
"can i just change to indonesian citizenship,
i really DONT want to go down,
tooo cowardly to move" HAHAHA.
I bet the guide could seee how sucky i am with heights,
he helped me ALL THE WAY DOWN the summit.
He's like super experience, and climb this mountain like over 200 times,
i trusted him like to the max,
just grabbed his hand ALL THE WAY DOWN,
dont want to let go HAHAHA.
and i was surprisingly fast compared to people behind me,
all thanks to him. Or else, i'll still be shaking there. HAHAHA.

Back to the same base camp 2, rested a while,
started trekking to our abse camp 3,
this time making our way down already.
I guess i was already too damn tired,
and legs were way too wobbly already,
i slipped a million times.
And because, i was afraid of falling into night trek,
i was dying to go fsater,
night trek sucks, you cant see.
I sprained my anklexxzz when we were reaching.
HOW DUMB I SWEAR.

Because of that, Jack had to carry my bag for me instead.
I was free of the DAMN HEAVY trekking bag, so THANKS.
Rested for the night.
Myra the pro first aider, bandaged my swelling ankle,
which amazing died down the next day,
like thank god again.
cos i have to trek all the way back today,
to senaru villagee.
Everyone toook abit of my stuff in my big bagpack,
i was left with only water in my bag,
thanks, i felt kinda bad, cos they were already carrying their
own heavy stuffff. THANKSTHANKSTHANKS. Never enough thanks.

We toook a different route all the baack to the village,
Thank god, no more cliffs,
no more overseeing the clouds,
no more rockclimbing,
like walking on grassslandss.
No shaking, no fear. Just walkkkkkk a longlong way thats all.
I dont mind that really, as long as no heights involved:D
heehee.

Back Senaru villageee,
finally bath after four long days up the mountain,
LIKE WOW, clean again, heavenly feeeling HAHAHA.
Gooood Dinnnnnnnnnnerrr. Debrieff which i cannot stop thanking everyone.
Heart to heart talk with someeeeeee.
Slept.

Day 5
All rested and goood,
we were ready to leavee this village back to Bali,
when the Guide told us that the Volcano had a small eruptionn,
just this morning,
SMALL ERUPTION and thank god we were already leaving.
I think trekking there has to stop for like 2 weeks,
because the Rinjani masters were saying that small eruption
will lead to big oneeeee, so leaveeeeeeeeeeeeee.
heh.

Another travellling day,
Long bus ride, ferry rideeeee, AND FINALLY BALI AT NIGHT.
We stayed in this BALI number one party hotel,
civilisation again!! yays.
The shops closed way too early, dint manage to shop,
only dinner, and then SLEEP again,
i swear WE WERE TOO TIRED FOR ANY PARTY.

Day 6
Our only day in bali,
was deciding to go with the madly&crazily in love with shopping gang,
or to go and immerse myself in water sports,
I chose the second one instead,
forgo shoppping!!!
Spent the long morning snorkling,
my virgin experienceeeee, amazing, just
fighting against the strong current!!
People were chasing fishes, hahaha. i was like uh NO,
i see whichever that comes along HAHHA. lazy to chase!!

Good Ole lunch at Thai Restaurant,
and then savour the long gone A&W. laze away, dint even shop,
unbelievable right hahahah.
Then headed for the beach and impromptu decision to do
surf boarding!!!
The best best best best, loving it to the max!!
We were paired up, two to an instructor,
the waves were really crashing on you,
initally i was like MYMY, the waves are higher than me, DIE.
HAHAHA.
But the bigger the betttttter, lovinggg it,
except that i take years trying to walk towards the sea,
beside the huge waves just slams you back a million steps.

The first time, i tried, i totally forgot about
standing up on the board,
just let the waves wash me all the way on shore! hahaha.
But slowly, we learnt to stand and balance,
and broke our initally aim of standing for at least ONE second,
I CAN BALANCE HURRAY. hahaha.
The whole entire beach were just surfing please.
FUN FUN, i swear to do it again!
But my instructor is sucha total bitch.
He was asking for tips while teaching,
then we were like okok later,
and later we RAN AWAY hahaha.

Eh we already paid for our lesson which ended early
bcos of the beach danger alarm okayxzxz.
How ridiculous, cos it means we already paid EXTRA.
Urhgxzxz.

Day 7
Woke up, straight to the airportttt,
happy to be back alive, REALLY.
Never felt so thankful to god in my life HAHAHA.

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO HELPED ME.
PRECIOUS little gesturessssss worked it all,
holding me to make sure i dont fall,
or ready to catch me when i fall,
or just plain words like "its okay, dont need to be scared"
"are you okay"
I needed all those i think!
Could never be at the summit without all their help.
Thanks to my group especially,
i was the group leader with N,
but apparently, i needed more help than the rest,
cos they all trekked before, I WAS THE ONLY NOOBIE,
so i have no idea how they randomly selected me to be the GL.
HAHAHA.

You know i even thought of how my sister is going
to explain my death down the mountain to my parents,
because i did not tell them about climbing a mountain,
because obviously,
they will slap me to death than to let me go HAHAHA.
I swear the dumbest of thoughts were running in my head.

Love this trip now that i am back,
when i was on the mountain and scared, i could only curse it,
like am i looking to die early and young.
but now i really do misss it,
experience of a lifetime. :) no joke.

And Thanks Sam, who called me before i left,
telling me, or rather INSISTING that i am gg up the summit,
and that i must tag a photo of summit with me on his fb hahaa,
i will.
And for asking them to watch out especially for me.
I AM SO TOUCHED, HAHAHA. THANKS.


And to all, I MADE IT BACK ALIVE,
to all that think i might die there.
Pictures up soooon:) and thank you all for the concern,
heeheee.

And now im dying to meet everyone!